out my heart to You, Father, as
a child--a completely helpless
child. There is nothing I can do
to make You speak to me or
answer my prayers, but I ask You,
my loving and merciful Friend,
to reveal to me Your presence.
I have been prideful, manipulating,
fearful, arrogant, cynical, and
unbelieving in my "spiritual"
life. I repent of looking down on
others "who don't seek You",
"who don't have a clue", "whose
opinions aren't worth considering".
How arrogant is that? How sinful
is that? I need You to so fill me
that Your humility, grace, and
compassion are mine as well. I
know that I cannot work up those
qualities--they are Yours alone.
Please make me so aware of Your
voice, and so untrusting of my own
heart that I hear Your Spirit stopping
me and I obey. I need Your voice and
Your guidance for every area of my
life. I can do nothing on my own.
deal, but without Me it is only chaff that will not last. I love you, and I want to have a relationship
with you that is full and open and without hindrance or reserve. I want you to be completely
Mine, and I want to be completely yours--you in Me, and I in you.
Is this really what you want? Do you want Me to invade every area of your daily life and
practice: how about your parenting, your marriage, your personality traits that you put
confidence in? Do you want Me to tell you how to eat, sleep, work, play, drive, keep house, go
to church, or treat people? I'll be glad to do it. Are you ready to hear and obey?
It is not a little holy nudge that you are asking for. Search your own heart and see if you
are willing to be wholly Mine in an ever-deepening way. I am willing to have that intimacy with
you; in fact, I long for it.
Help my unwillingness. I put
no confidence in my devotion
or love. I place all my hope
in Your love and power and
mercy.
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